Table Set For Two

"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, 

He will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him."  

(James 1:12)

There's nothing like spending a rainy day embraced in God's presence.  I may not see Him physically, but He's definitely there, speaking the exact words I need to hear, patiently waiting for me to just listen. 

At first I wasn't sure how exactly to spend a date with Jesus.  After several minutes of just staring at the index of my Bible I decided to read James.  It felt like every verse was written specifically for me. "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of faith develops perseverance." (James 1:2-3)  Before I even knew it, I had finished the entire book.  It made enduring today so much easier.  Life didn't feel quite so empty.  Slowly but surely my heart beat a little stronger, a little more passionately, more joyously.  I even started songwriting about life with a genuine happiness.  As trite as it may seem I started writing about learning to dance in the rain.  

A few sneak peaks into my life.  [1]  Chocolate & Piano, my two best friends when I'm sad.  [2] My new songwriting notebook (a gift from my bestie Ashley), it's extra special cause it has regular paper on one side and staff paper on the other side, a cute cover.  [3] My songwriting corner: keyboard, Bible, iPod, all the wonders  [4] The amazing fire in the downstairs lobby [5] and the super comfy sofas there too :)

Rip open the skies,

Let the rains pour, 

Release the rainbow concealed in the storm. 

The waters can beat,

Till I’m on my knees 

But still I will learn how to dance in the storm, 

And I will dance in the rain...

Music is the story your heart wants to sing, and pain the honesty that makes it beautiful...

Being a writer is probably one of the most emotionally painful jobs to have.   It's painful because to write out something with the honesty you have to many times go back and relive some of your hurts.  But I don't think I could have it any other way, it's one of my biggest passions in life. Probably one of my hardest songs to write was my song "Hard As Metal," which I wrote in June of this year.

I finally got the sound file from my guyfriend for it, which we recorded together on his laptop a few weeks ago.  I absolutely love it.  I've been songwriting for about three maybe four years now, but this probably one of my first songs I really like.   It's a painful song, but it's definitely beautiful. It talks about how we tend to close our hearts off after heartbreak, becoming hard as metal, and the only way to be able to love again is to learn to forgive.   One day, I hope to get it professionally recorded then I can show it to you guys. I might make a music video too. ;) 

I honestly had no idea for an album name when his iTunes was asking us for one, but my guyfriend came up with a pretty sweet name from part of my lyrics. "Crimson Words In Cursive"  I think it's sounds pretty good, so I might just keep it.   Well anyways I was taking some random pictures of this red rose I got from our choir concert last night, and I couldn't help but use one of the pictures for making a possible CD cover.  Any ideas, suggestions, or comments??  Let me know!