"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." John 15:13
Christ's death on the cross was a symbol of His love for us. L-O-V-E. Something of what I have definitely needed lately. School is finally coming to an end. We have one last week of classes and a week of finals followed by a five-day choir tour to Washington. Though some of this may sound fun and exciting. It's really not. I have been so stressed, and on top of that, things at home have been pretty tough too.
Spring break was completely different from what I planned. I hoped to organize my room, take stuff back home, rest, practice for my music classes, complete some homework, finish the research for my music paper, etc. Well lot's just say pretty much none of this happened. As we were driving home we got a phone calling saying my grandma (from my dad's side) had fallen and had to be taken to the hospital. Not good. We got home Friday night, went out of town for my 3-yr-old cousin's b-day Saturday and then returned Sunday evening. Things were okay at this point. But Monday evening my grandpa moved in with us, and we didn't know for how long. I had spent all Monday finally unpacking and doing laundry I had procrastinated on while at college. Our house is just barely big enough for us and my room is the only one available for guests and as much as my parents wanted me to be able to sleep in my own room we didn't have anywhere else for my grandpa to stay. So I switched back and forth between sleeping on the spare mattress in my little brother's room and sleeping on the floor in my older brother's music studio. This was okay, but it was a pain in the butt to be dragging around my stuff. I couldn't just leave it in my room, my little brother didn't have space in his room, and the music studio had to be used for my brother's music lessons he taught. I felt like a nomad.... in my own house. Not very relaxing. Plus I realized smart me had left my entire music folder in my dorm room. So much for that.
Overall it wasn't bad. I really enjoyed spending time with my family. Especially getting to know my little brother more. He has grown up so much over the past year, he's a little man now. The real hard part was returning to school. The group I was carpooling with decided we should just drive up Tuesday morning in time for our 9:30am class, instead of Monday so we could spend the extra day at home. Monday was probably my favorite day of Spring Break, but why did I agree to this? 6am is too early to be awake. I was so exhausted by the middle of the day, and I was already not feeling my best since I had gotten sick over break (no voice, stuffy nose, sore throat, cough. eek!) So I was standing in the risers during choir when I felt so tired I was about to fall asleep standing up while singing, is that even possible??? I finally decided to sit cause I seriously almost fell from the second row of the risers.... probably not too safe. Then my eye started to itch... really bad. Yep, I had gotten pink eye. This pretty much ruined my week. No one warned my that my little cousin we had visited at the beginning of spring break was sick and had pink eye. Argh!!!!
Thus I haven't blogging a lot recently since I could barely stand using my eyes, they'd been itching and stinging so bad all week. And living in the dorms is not as fun as everyone makes it out to be. They NEVER shut-up!!! All the girls have seriously since I got back have been screaming and giggling non-stop, and it's not helping my mood at all. I feel like crap.... (excuse my language.) and am not myself right now. and I can't tell you how sad I was last night when I was sitting in our living room doing homework when I heard them running and screaming after quiet hours "OMG!!! We're going to pull an all-nighter and watch the Royal Wedding."
So in the end back to Easter. I just feel like I need a big dose of God's Love. Some patience, energy, and strength. but a lot of love. I hate living with girls. They're such back-stabbers, noisy, and annoying, and I am definitely looking forward to moving into the apartments with the upper class-men. instead of 16 girls we will only have 8. Praise The Lord!
I honestly thank the Lord for His sacrifice for us. He gave up His only son Jesus, cause He loved us, despite our hatred or anger toward Him, despite our faults and failures. He Loved Us. He Died For Us. I don't know if I will ever be able to come close to the way He loves us. But Easter is not about His death but the fact that Jesus defeated death by coming back to life. So we can be assured a free gift of life in heaven with Him if we only accept it. God is love.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
1 Corinthians 13:4-7