So I got horribly sick a few weeks ago, and it was terrible! except for the fact one of my roomies was sick too, so we got to be quarantined together watching movie after movie and just sleeping the fever and sniffles away. However being sick meant losing my voice completely for about a week and a half. Probably one of the worst things that could happen to me since music is my life and I'm a music major. After two weeks I got depressed, I felt so unmotivated to do anything but sleep. So I spent most of my time just thinking.
Honestly, my joy in schooling had started to fade and I realized that I really wasn't where I wanted or was supposed to be. After studying music for an entire year, I realized my life was headed in a totally different direction now. Though the thought of switching majors or even schools possibly made me feel like a failure, it was something I had to look into.
My only other choice of majors I'd want to do here was English, it was what I applied as before switching over to music. They have an amazing English program here, and one of the few schools in California that actually offer a bachelors in Creative Writing!! After looking into the requirements for these I found out I was only three classes away from having a music minor and I would only have to take four lit courses for English. I dread literature, probably the only reason I hadn't switched to English sooner. Instead of two more years here, I would only need three semesters at the most, possibly just two! This is a great relief since schooling is not cheap.
I knew God had led me here, for a particular reason. I'm just know finally learning. Through all the hardships I've had here. I always asked God. Why? Why would you bring me all the way here to fail? It was to grow. Coming here has helped me discover other passions I have, and grow deeper in my relationship with Him. I definately can't wait for the following semesters when I will have more time to dedicate to songwriting, and study how to communicate more effectively through my words.
Show me the right path, O LORD; point out the road for me to follow.